Dear Khoa & MaiAn,

Today was a Saturday so Big Brother hung out with Daddy all day while Mommy devoted all her time to Little Sister. Daddy always take Big Brother to many fun places, and as a result, you always come back very exhausted from all the running around. Today is the first Saturday of the month which means Daddy took you to Home Depot and you built a race car today. We are also completing the paperwork for preschool for you, a prospect that is most scary to Mommy for the longest time. I don't think I am ever ready for you to be apart from me, but Daddy said I must let go, so I am praying so so much that it will be a good thing for you. I know it's going to be difficult for you to adjust. I can just imagine the tears - I wish there's something else I can do to make it better for you, but I simply cannot protect you from everything. Monday will be a scary day for Mommy too. You took a long nap of three hours today, something you haven't done in a while and woke up very happy. After dinner, Daddy took you to church. I am proud of how well you have grown - you just give me so much happiness that you cannot even imagine. I love how you come to me when you are scare holding my hand. I love how you sing to me, how you tell me stories about the places that you have gone and the things you have done while you were away from me briefly. I love how you adore your little sister and teach her all these things that you know.

Little Sister slept better today but not as much as mommy would hope. You constantly wake up in the wee hour of the night these days, not sure why, and I am hoping it will stop soon so that Mommy would be less exhausted. For the day, you woke at 7:10. We went over to play with Big Brother and Daddy and you went back to sleep briefly for about 45 minutes. And then, you took another two hours nap from 10-12, and then another 1:40 nap from 1:40-3:20. And then for the night at around 5:30. Hopefully, it will be a smooth night; seem so long ago when we have a good night (maybe the night that we got back from southern california). I tried leaving you unswaddled a few nights ago, but you didn't sleep well at all, so we are back to swaddling. Today's favorite moment is when Mommy was trying "walk" Little Sister (which you loved) and Big Brother joined along, and of course when all four of us lying next to each other. Your rash is still here (almost two months now); we went to the doctor yesterday but they still think it's fungal, so we are on miconazole. Hopefully it will be gone soon.  You are very talkative and loud (yikes) but cute these days. Your are so alert, and we know for sure you can stay up really long. Since Big Brother will be in school in the morning, Mommy will able to devote more time to you, and maybe your sleep will get into a routine. We try to train bottle feeding, but haven't work out so far.

Love you both so much.