Dear Khoa and Mai an,

It suddenly occurs to me that my writing is really composed of mostly stress, so I will attempt to write more happy things hoping that it will be more pleasurable to read later on. Today was similar to yesterday as far as stress level. Things would be a lot better if little sister is able to nap longer than 30' in the morning. I guess I can't blame her since we are outside and there are too many distractions. I am going to try the method of nursing outside tomorrow to see how things would go (this is the epiphany of the day for Mommy). If Little Sister can sleep longer in the morning, we can avoid all the fussiness while Mommy is trying to put Big Brother to sleep. And more sleep is better for all of us. Big Brother gave up the battle at 2:15pm, after a lot of yelling from Mommy of course. Luckily, Big Brother has been napping for three hours for three days in a row, hoping that you will keep sleeping this much. The thought of sending you to preschool is still ruminating - I am not sure how we will proceed. I know that I have to send you eventually (at least by this time next month), but it is so scary. I am so afraid of what will happen, but I know that I need to spend more time to help Little Sister sleep. It's such a difficult decision - how long can I hold on to both of you for?

Random cuteness:
1) I did some research and it turns out that thumbsucking is the need to relax, so perhaps Mommy will need to help Little Sister relax so that you don't resort to thumbsucking (so frequently now)
2) Big Brother reading to Little Sister every time the three of us sit down to read together
3) Big Brother singing all the time all the songs, especially when you intentionally sing the antonym of a word in a song
4) Big Brother pointing to the different vehicles on the streets, so proud that you know them all
5) Big Brother comes to Mommy and hug her legs to let her know that you need her


There are many more cuteness moments but they always escape Mommy when she is writing; they only appear when I am lying in bed unable to sleep. I will try to document it down so I will remember.

It was an easy night for Little Sister to go down today too, hoping for more of the same. We shared many precious laughs when it's just the two of us. You woke up at 7:10 today (almost 13 hours of sleep & less of night screaming) and the first thought that came to my mind was I just want to spend all the time in the world with you and only you, but I must make you share it with the chaos of Big Brother's presence too (which is precious in its own way too).

I love you both so so much.