Dear Mai An & Khoa,

The past few days have been so crazy for Mommy, so much that I haven't got a chance to write to my angels and have been lacking sleep like there's no tomorrow. Part of the craziness was that we had a lot of vomiting & lack of sleep episodes between the two of you, so much that Mommy almost lost her temper. It started with all of us going to a holiday schedule, which throws the sleep hour totally off for both of you, and then the same nap fighting the following day, but today, everyday is sort of back to normal again. Thanks goodness.  Yesterday was an extremely good sleep day for little sister, the day before was one of the worst in her life, and today was just an "okay" day. Mommy is trying to get you to eat more during the day so that you will eat less at night, but still haven't figure how. When I feed you more frequently during the day, you just vomit - so we have to go with what you prefer I guess. Today, you didn't feed from morning until 2 pm - which worry me a little bit, but I don't know what else to do. Lately, you seem to hate swaddling too - crying your heart out every time I attempt to swaddle you. Tonight, you are sleeping on your stomach - hopefully you will sleep better? Every time I try to put you sleep, but you don't want to yet, you vomit too? I am not sure it is because you are intentional protesting or just coincidence? You have really master the smiling though - big and wide - all the time, even when you are extremely tired. Your smiles are just so so sweet - it makes all my tiredness really melt away. On Christmas Day, you were so lacking in sleep that you just fell asleep on my shoulder without any prompting - which is a first for me. 

Big Brother has been such a sweet boy too, even though you really test Mommy's patience. Yesterday was another rainy day, so we played inside and had a lot of fun opening Christmas presents. You love your new Camaro car the most and want to play with it all the time. Most of your other gifts were clothes - all of them are too big because you are so tiny. We will be ready for them next year (I hope). Lately, you love your rocket PJ and want to wear it all the time, even though it makes it so difficult to go to the bathroom during the daytime. Today was sunny so we spent a lot of time exploring the complex across from ours: we went to their pool, gym, community room, garden, elevator, you name it. You had so much fun exploring and took a three hours nap - which makes Mommy so so happy. Yesterday was a complete opposite - as far as sleeping - so Mommy was very exhausted last night :).  Mommy recently realizes that you secretly store all the things I say into your head (especially things I don't really mean to say), and you repeat to me without knowing that some of those things that "bad statements" that Mommy have made. Therefore, I have to be careful with what I say to you now. I don't ever want to have even the slightest thought of Mommy being "mad" or "upset" at you at this early age. I want you to always be happy, innocent, and full of joy. I don't ever want to impart any "negative vibe" onto you. I wish that every night of your life will be made of beautiful dreams, and never any nightmare :)

I want to protect both of my angels, every day of your life, so that yours will be always beautiful and pure, but that's not possible, but I am going to try as much as i can.