Dear Khoa and Mai an,

Mommy has been so bad at writing. Let me blame it on the emotional toll of being away from big brother and little sister's nap resistance. This week big brother went to school for four days straight, which was hard for both of us. Mommy keeps thinking about big brothe all day long. Sometimes, I am at loss with what to do, maybe take care of little sister perhaps. One day, the sister told us that they were telling a story about mothers and big brother shed a few tears. When you were comforted, you cried even harder and vomited. Hearing that story just breaks my heart and makes me even more guilty about sending you to preschool. You are still adjusting to school; I can tell that you dread it every morning, but it's like you don't have a choice. I don't get to spend much time with you when you are at school, which adds to my guilt of course.  We usually go to the park when you come home for some mommy and Khoa time.  You really enjoy the monkey bar, scooter, watching older kids play soccer these days.  On happier note, you still amaze me with your ability to remember things I tell you, songs that you sing... Just being with you make me so happy with your cuteness. Yesterday, we went to petsmart to get you some fishes. You love going there just to see the different animals. You love to tap on the fish tank to get the fish to move. You went to your first Easter egg hunt last week; it was just so cute to watch you pick the eggs.  Currently, you love to say "khong thi thoi" when we ask you to do something, but you don't want to do it. It's very cute to hear you say it.  Ever since you started school, you are not resisting nap anymore. The bad thing is you don't nap for that long at school, but we don't have a choice.

As for little sister, you have grown quite strong with your ability to maneuver with your body. You can roll from one side of bed to another. You can also push mommy away when you are full. No more nursing to sleep. You are quite hard to soothe to sleep, which frustrate mommy to no end. Sometimes, I really lost my patience and you totally sense that frustration and become even more fussy. So, what I have learned is to take you outside for a change in environment and both of us tend to be better. Last night, you woke up at 3 am again and I couldn't soothe you back to sleep again. Hopefully, you don't wake up at these hours anymore. The waking up after 30' at bedtime is gone (hopefully), but you still wake up a lot at night. Usually mommy is just too tired so I don't even bother to count how often. Naps range from 3.5-4.5 hrs and nighttime is from 11-12 hrs. You also started crawling somewhat. You love to be held and doesn't want to be by yourself at all.  Today, we gave you a few tasting of vanilla yogurt, which you tried but not enough to ask for more. Still no teeth yet even though you are always drooling. You are so very good at peeing and pooping in the toilet, much far exceeds mommy and daddy's expectations. It's getting warm so you usually go diaper free when you are awake. You laugh all the Time if you are in a good mood and love to look at yourself in the mirror.

That's all updates for now while little girl is taking morning nap and big brother is out with daddy.

Love you both so so much.