Dear Khoa & MaiAn,

It's only 2:30 in the afternoon, yet the day has felt like forever. It started with Big Brother refusing to eat breakfast and Little Sister just sleeping 30 minutes at a time. Last night was rough on Mommy because Little Sister kept waking up. At one point, around 4:30 am, I just went back to sleep with Little Sister wide awake because nothing I was doing would help with your sleeping. Looking back, maybe because your clothes was a little wet because mommy didn't change your diaper. I want to avoid changing diaper in the middle of the night to preserve sleep, but it looks like we will have to resume changing diaper. Of course, there is always a risk of your clothes being wet in between me changing diaper too...  This whole morning, little sister has been latched on my breast like never before so much that I wouldn't be surprised if there was a vomiting episode but it didn't happen. She just didn't want to let go. I guess because you realize you have Mommy to yourself. Out of desperation again, now you are in the moby again sleeping. It is the one and an half hour mark. Mommy is hoping for three hour; hopefully you will concur. Every noise that I make arouse you so I am standing here trying to prolong your sleep as much as I can.

Big brother is not quite himself either; very fussy and clingy to both Mommy and Daddy the whole morning. You have taken a new interest in drawing lately, taking inspiration from your family and your toys. It is very cute; mommy and daddy would usually be clueless at your drawings but you enjoy telling us what they are. The most stressful thing so far is you had another gigantic vomiting episode; every time something likes this happen, it gives mommy and daddy so much stress. a piece of apple had gone down the wrong way. We so hope that this vomiting would end soon, but no light at the end of the tunnel yet. Because we had to refeed you, you took your nap very late. Don't even know what will happen tonight. That sense of powerlessness as a parent is still here with me - I feel so helpless as to make your lives the best that they can be for both of you. Daddy is quite stressed out too; he still feels a bit under the weather and now has totally lost it after the vomiting. Now it's clean up time for mommy and daddy. 

May god and the angels protect and guide you to the very best paths for your lives. A tired mommy who loves you both so dearly.