Dear Khoa & MaiAn,

It has a rough three days for Mommy and Daddy - I never thought that parenthood would be this hard. We both are really worn out by your demands and have never been as stressed ever in our lives. Mommy keeps telling herself to think of the positive and that this phase would be over to keep my hopes up. It started with Little Sister not sleeping well at night at all; you keep waking up every single hour crying your heart out. You don't even sleep as early as you used too, and you wake up so so often. What follow every crying episode is vomiting and more crying. Nothing Mommy would do would make you sleep unless you are out in the light with all Big Brother's commotion. In the middle of the night would be Mommy holding you upright, but Mommy really doesn't have the strength to stampede throughout the house. Sometimes, sleep deprivation really get into Mommy's head and takes all my patience away since I am so exhausted from the day already. I have to repeat to myself that this baby is helpless; it's not her fault. The problem is that I just don't know how to help you.

Today would also be the third day that Big Brother keeps on fighting on taking naps. Mommy really snapped at you today because you were so stubborn. You would do the opposite of whatever I would ask you - and you know that is what Mommy doesn't want you to do, yet you do it anyway. The only thing that would eventually help you to fall asleep today would be you rolling off the bed and hurting yourself. You slept for 2 hours plus the previous two days, but today was very short (1 hour and 40 minutes). And today, for the whole afternoon, Little Sister only slept for half an hour, which frustrated Mommy to no end. On top of it all, you vomited today in the morning after you ate a piece of apple too. Little Sister's nap got delayed because I had to clean the carpet and gave you a bath due to the vomiting. It was a bad day for all of us. Our mornings are fine and fun; the frustration always begin with nap time and gets worse and worse. Tonight, Daddy put you to bed late, so you are asleep late. Daddy is still feeling under the weather from his flu - he is having a rough time too.

I am really exhausted, but wanted to write something because tomorrow would be my first day back to work already. It is going to be a big turning point for both of you, especially Little Sister. She will have so much adjustments to her routine - all of us will go through tough time together. I keep saying prayers for both of you throughout the day as it helps me put things in perspective, but tonight, I will be saying more prayers so that our family will adjust to the new things in our lives. My goal today is to be less stressed so you both don't feed off the stress from me.

Much Love to my prince and princess.