Dear Khoa & MaiAn,

After a month of Grandma's visit, we are somewhat back to normal. We just returned from a road trip to Southern California (somewhat horrific with Little Sister's crying and a trip that lasted 11 hours on the road) and are adjusting to life with just Mommy and her two angels. Big Brother had a hard time adjusting the first day, but was doing better on the second day. Naptime has been so dramatic with all three of us crying. Both Big Brother and Little Sister cried at the same time, loudly, and together. The third day Daddy came home for lunch so things were off again. Friday was good, but today was the weekend and things got off again (sigh).  Mommy really lost her temper with Big Brother this week - I never realized how "angry" I could get, especially when you choose to do everything that I ask you not to. You like to wake your sister up when she is sleeping and laying on her body when I am trying to nurse her. Despite me pleading and bribing you not to, you still like to bother her to no end.  Mommy really screamed and spanked you today (battle didn't end until 3:30 today), and I feel so ashamed for doing it. I keep telling myself to control my temper, but at the moment, I couldn't seem to hold it together. I keep fearing one day you will come back to me and say that you remember these terrible moments.  I also feel terrible that Little Sister has to witness all these emotional bursting moments too - I too hope that all will become a distant memory to both of you.

Little Sister is just going along with whatever is at hand, crying when something isn't right and is sleeping when everything fall into her place.  Today, we all went to a party for a short while and Little Sister didn't do so well. Maybe it was because you didn't have enough sleep, but you were crying the whole time unless you were held by Mommy. This last week was rough on Little Sister sleepingwise too.  Sleeping is what Mommy feels is the most important element for you, yet I simply cannot provide you the best environment so that you will sleep more and sleep better. Despite Mommy's attempt to help you to sleep unassisted by yourself, you outright refuse to follow and always want to be held (despite the chaos from your brother's actions).  When will all this drama end? I am not sure, but I am hoping that Little Sister will give in soon and sleep by yourself - it would make the day goes by much smoother for all of us.

Big Brother is currently fascinated with babies; you just want to hear everything about babies. It is how Mommy can get you to calm down when I need you to sleep (doesn't work all the time, but most of the time). You are also into singing all kind of different songs and you have an incredible memory. You will even remember the lyrics to the long ones (which is why Mommy fear that my emotional explosive moments will be ingrained into your memory). You will sing at all times. What is cutest is when you sing happy birthday to your aunt. Normally when you are not fighting bedtime, you are very respectful and super cute. Your vocabulary continue to explode and you still melt Mommy's heart with all your cuteness all the time. You continue to love to be outside just simply wandering around the neighborhood looking at all the things around you. Today the cutest thing you did was to empty all the money from red lixi envelope and throw the empty envelopes into the recycle bin. Mommy is proud that you are learning about recycling so early. At the party, you were very well-behaved and ate well, something that everyone was so impressed about.

After a long day, Mommy is thoroughly tired and will call it a night now. Love you both very much.