Dear my loves,
Yesterday was slightly a better day with big brother falling to nap 15' earlier (2:15 pm). Little sister's morning was not good sleeping wise, but you slept better in the afternoon than yesterday. Hopefully things will continue in this trend. Daddy took big brother to visit a nearby school so we might try doing a half day to see how you would fare. Daddy said that you are still very shy and would only participate from the outside. After the school visit, we wander around the neighborhood and the post office, went home for a brief lunch and then nap, which is getting a little easier.
But today was something else as far as bad as it can be. It took forever (2:40) for Big Brother to give up fighting sleep. It was like we took one step forward, but two steps backward. Generally, everything were not going well from noon onward with Little Sister not sleeping much despite after Big Brother sleep. Nighttime was rough too; you wouldn't sleep until after Mommy gave you a quick bath. You continue to wake twice (only 10pm now) crying your heart out; one of those time you threw up everything. Mommy decided to unswaddle you and you seem to settle back to sleep, so I am not sure it's the swaddle or something else is going on. I guess you are old enough not to swaddle anymore...Big Brother is so cute with your singing. Mommy will try to capture some of it on video for memory. You got an amazing memory and are able to remember the song's lyrics so well. Mommy again feels sorry for losing her temper today when I was trying to put you to nap. We had a lot of fun in the morning looking at different vehicles on Main Street. Your favorite today was the tractor that was clearing the field on the cross street at the empty lot. After that, we went to the park where you had fun climbing and sliding. An older friend was trying to befriend you, but you were very shy.
Mommy is exhausted today after dealing with two resistant nappers and will call it a night. Love you much.
Wednesday, February 27, 2013
Monday, February 25, 2013
Juggling nightmare
Dear Khoa and Mai an,
It's quite unfortunate, but nightmarish would still be an understatement to describe the last week. I don't know why but big brother has been so nap resistant; it takes 2.5 hours from the time we start until big brother gives up and falls asleep for nap each day. Of course, little sister is suffering through those time too, often get waken up by all the noise and commotion. Sometimes, Little Sister would take her own nap and even after she wakes up, Big Brother is still wide awake. Mommy keeps on wishing that things will get better, but haven't yet. Poor little sister has to go through all of this - Mommy feels so terrible about making little sister's life so rough. We also went to visit a few preschools to see which one is suitable for Big Brother, but Mommy is so dreading the anxiety of separation that Big Brother will feel when we drop you off. This week, Daddy gave Big Brother a haircut, which went much better than the previous times. There were no resistance - though it was bit too short, but I am sure hair will outgrow itself very quickly.
The weekend is much better because Daddy can help take care of Big Brother while Mommy devotes all her time to Little Sister, who has grown to be such a beautiful precious little girl (despite all the hardship and lack of sleep in her life thus far). We had a relaxing weekend with not much activities, perhaps because Mommy is too tired and so is Daddy, so we just hung out at home. Little Sister was going through teething (or so we think) and was quite fussy throughout Friday and Saturday. Luckily, the fussiness didn't last very long. Little Sister still had the rash (which we initially thought was diaper rash, but now not so) - so we are trying to schedule her for a dermatologist look. Little sister has given us a lot more smiling out loud these days. Today, when Mommy was giving a bath you had so much fun when we were playing with the water and jump up and down.
Mommy wishes both of my angels beautiful dreams tonight. Much Love.
It's quite unfortunate, but nightmarish would still be an understatement to describe the last week. I don't know why but big brother has been so nap resistant; it takes 2.5 hours from the time we start until big brother gives up and falls asleep for nap each day. Of course, little sister is suffering through those time too, often get waken up by all the noise and commotion. Sometimes, Little Sister would take her own nap and even after she wakes up, Big Brother is still wide awake. Mommy keeps on wishing that things will get better, but haven't yet. Poor little sister has to go through all of this - Mommy feels so terrible about making little sister's life so rough. We also went to visit a few preschools to see which one is suitable for Big Brother, but Mommy is so dreading the anxiety of separation that Big Brother will feel when we drop you off. This week, Daddy gave Big Brother a haircut, which went much better than the previous times. There were no resistance - though it was bit too short, but I am sure hair will outgrow itself very quickly.
The weekend is much better because Daddy can help take care of Big Brother while Mommy devotes all her time to Little Sister, who has grown to be such a beautiful precious little girl (despite all the hardship and lack of sleep in her life thus far). We had a relaxing weekend with not much activities, perhaps because Mommy is too tired and so is Daddy, so we just hung out at home. Little Sister was going through teething (or so we think) and was quite fussy throughout Friday and Saturday. Luckily, the fussiness didn't last very long. Little Sister still had the rash (which we initially thought was diaper rash, but now not so) - so we are trying to schedule her for a dermatologist look. Little sister has given us a lot more smiling out loud these days. Today, when Mommy was giving a bath you had so much fun when we were playing with the water and jump up and down.
Mommy wishes both of my angels beautiful dreams tonight. Much Love.
Monday, February 18, 2013
Dear Khoa and MaiAn,
Today was another rough day with big brother's vomiting as soon as we head out for the park and more nap resistance. It was a gray and cold day, so we just headed home. Mommy was not in the mood for the park thinking about how you just vomited everything up, so we spend the rest of the day inside. It was a terrible day for little sister because big brother was so much chaos. Little sister didn't sleep the whole morning, which made mommy feels so guilty. The nap battle ended at 1:50; afterward we all slept until 4:10. Poor little sis was still so sleep deprived and tired she didn't have the energy to fight for night time sleeping. Mommy then took big brother to the library where we had a lot of fun but also a pooping accident. Then daddy called to say that little sister woke up and wouldn't go back to sleep so we hurried home. Overall, it was a tough day to say the very least. Here's to a better tomorrow my angels.
Love, mommy
Today was another rough day with big brother's vomiting as soon as we head out for the park and more nap resistance. It was a gray and cold day, so we just headed home. Mommy was not in the mood for the park thinking about how you just vomited everything up, so we spend the rest of the day inside. It was a terrible day for little sister because big brother was so much chaos. Little sister didn't sleep the whole morning, which made mommy feels so guilty. The nap battle ended at 1:50; afterward we all slept until 4:10. Poor little sis was still so sleep deprived and tired she didn't have the energy to fight for night time sleeping. Mommy then took big brother to the library where we had a lot of fun but also a pooping accident. Then daddy called to say that little sister woke up and wouldn't go back to sleep so we hurried home. Overall, it was a tough day to say the very least. Here's to a better tomorrow my angels.
Love, mommy
Sunday, February 17, 2013
Dear Khoa & MaiAn,
Today was Sunday so Daddy is home to help Mommy taking care of Big Brother while Mommy has more time to attend to Little Sister. Little Sister woke up very early at around 6:15. You haven't had much good nights, constantly waking up to use Mommy as pacifier at night, but for the past two nights, you actually woke up and wanted Mommy's attention in the middle of the night. Mommy was very very tired last night (I think I am still going through a cold) and was thinking of just letting you just being there since I didn't have enough energy, but luckily I garnered enough effort and was able to lure you back to sleep (I was too sleepy to count how long it took me). I keep hoping for the time when you will become a better sleeper so that we all have better nights, hopefully soon, my sweet daughter. You went back to sleep with Mommy at around 7:30 and woke up at 9:15. We went to visit one of Daddy's friend's new baby and you went for the afternoon at 11:40. You lasted for 3:10 in the Moby and you went to sleep for the night at around 5pm. So, overall, I think today was a good day. Watching you sleep gives my heart so much gladness. Seeing a new baby today made me realized that having you in our lives is just so precious. I miss seeing you that small (when you were sleeping all the time), but at the same time, I love to see how much you have grown.
Big Brother hung out with Daddy all day today going to the Tet festival at Grand Century Mall. Daddy said that when you were given a balloon, you asked for one more for your little sister at home too, which I thought is so sweet. I am so glad that you love your little sister so much. Weekend is my favorites because we are not in the rush of time and the four of us have time to take pictures and really take time to cuddle and hug. Naptime continues to be a battle; Daddy spent 1:10 trying to put you down for nap and Mommy spent about 1:15 to put you to sleep at night before I had to leave the room to go to your Little Sister. If only you would sleep right away so that we don't waste time just laying in bed doing nothing. Hopefully, you are still getting the rest you need. I wonder what will happen tomorrow when I am home with the two of you.
Mommy has been thinking a lot about whether to send Big Brother to school so that I don't have to juggle the two of you to myself, but I fear the crying so much. It is my deepest fear to not be able to protect my precious loves. I know eventually we have to part, but I am trying to hang on to every moment that I get to spend with you two. I am hoping that Little Sister will eventually be able sleep by herself so naptime won't be a battle everyday... hoping it will soon.
Love you both so so much.
Today was Sunday so Daddy is home to help Mommy taking care of Big Brother while Mommy has more time to attend to Little Sister. Little Sister woke up very early at around 6:15. You haven't had much good nights, constantly waking up to use Mommy as pacifier at night, but for the past two nights, you actually woke up and wanted Mommy's attention in the middle of the night. Mommy was very very tired last night (I think I am still going through a cold) and was thinking of just letting you just being there since I didn't have enough energy, but luckily I garnered enough effort and was able to lure you back to sleep (I was too sleepy to count how long it took me). I keep hoping for the time when you will become a better sleeper so that we all have better nights, hopefully soon, my sweet daughter. You went back to sleep with Mommy at around 7:30 and woke up at 9:15. We went to visit one of Daddy's friend's new baby and you went for the afternoon at 11:40. You lasted for 3:10 in the Moby and you went to sleep for the night at around 5pm. So, overall, I think today was a good day. Watching you sleep gives my heart so much gladness. Seeing a new baby today made me realized that having you in our lives is just so precious. I miss seeing you that small (when you were sleeping all the time), but at the same time, I love to see how much you have grown.
Big Brother hung out with Daddy all day today going to the Tet festival at Grand Century Mall. Daddy said that when you were given a balloon, you asked for one more for your little sister at home too, which I thought is so sweet. I am so glad that you love your little sister so much. Weekend is my favorites because we are not in the rush of time and the four of us have time to take pictures and really take time to cuddle and hug. Naptime continues to be a battle; Daddy spent 1:10 trying to put you down for nap and Mommy spent about 1:15 to put you to sleep at night before I had to leave the room to go to your Little Sister. If only you would sleep right away so that we don't waste time just laying in bed doing nothing. Hopefully, you are still getting the rest you need. I wonder what will happen tomorrow when I am home with the two of you.
Mommy has been thinking a lot about whether to send Big Brother to school so that I don't have to juggle the two of you to myself, but I fear the crying so much. It is my deepest fear to not be able to protect my precious loves. I know eventually we have to part, but I am trying to hang on to every moment that I get to spend with you two. I am hoping that Little Sister will eventually be able sleep by herself so naptime won't be a battle everyday... hoping it will soon.
Love you both so so much.
Saturday, February 16, 2013
Dear Khoa & MaiAn,
After a month of Grandma's visit, we are somewhat back to normal. We just returned from a road trip to Southern California (somewhat horrific with Little Sister's crying and a trip that lasted 11 hours on the road) and are adjusting to life with just Mommy and her two angels. Big Brother had a hard time adjusting the first day, but was doing better on the second day. Naptime has been so dramatic with all three of us crying. Both Big Brother and Little Sister cried at the same time, loudly, and together. The third day Daddy came home for lunch so things were off again. Friday was good, but today was the weekend and things got off again (sigh). Mommy really lost her temper with Big Brother this week - I never realized how "angry" I could get, especially when you choose to do everything that I ask you not to. You like to wake your sister up when she is sleeping and laying on her body when I am trying to nurse her. Despite me pleading and bribing you not to, you still like to bother her to no end. Mommy really screamed and spanked you today (battle didn't end until 3:30 today), and I feel so ashamed for doing it. I keep telling myself to control my temper, but at the moment, I couldn't seem to hold it together. I keep fearing one day you will come back to me and say that you remember these terrible moments. I also feel terrible that Little Sister has to witness all these emotional bursting moments too - I too hope that all will become a distant memory to both of you.
Little Sister is just going along with whatever is at hand, crying when something isn't right and is sleeping when everything fall into her place. Today, we all went to a party for a short while and Little Sister didn't do so well. Maybe it was because you didn't have enough sleep, but you were crying the whole time unless you were held by Mommy. This last week was rough on Little Sister sleepingwise too. Sleeping is what Mommy feels is the most important element for you, yet I simply cannot provide you the best environment so that you will sleep more and sleep better. Despite Mommy's attempt to help you to sleep unassisted by yourself, you outright refuse to follow and always want to be held (despite the chaos from your brother's actions). When will all this drama end? I am not sure, but I am hoping that Little Sister will give in soon and sleep by yourself - it would make the day goes by much smoother for all of us.
Big Brother is currently fascinated with babies; you just want to hear everything about babies. It is how Mommy can get you to calm down when I need you to sleep (doesn't work all the time, but most of the time). You are also into singing all kind of different songs and you have an incredible memory. You will even remember the lyrics to the long ones (which is why Mommy fear that my emotional explosive moments will be ingrained into your memory). You will sing at all times. What is cutest is when you sing happy birthday to your aunt. Normally when you are not fighting bedtime, you are very respectful and super cute. Your vocabulary continue to explode and you still melt Mommy's heart with all your cuteness all the time. You continue to love to be outside just simply wandering around the neighborhood looking at all the things around you. Today the cutest thing you did was to empty all the money from red lixi envelope and throw the empty envelopes into the recycle bin. Mommy is proud that you are learning about recycling so early. At the party, you were very well-behaved and ate well, something that everyone was so impressed about.
After a long day, Mommy is thoroughly tired and will call it a night now. Love you both very much.
After a month of Grandma's visit, we are somewhat back to normal. We just returned from a road trip to Southern California (somewhat horrific with Little Sister's crying and a trip that lasted 11 hours on the road) and are adjusting to life with just Mommy and her two angels. Big Brother had a hard time adjusting the first day, but was doing better on the second day. Naptime has been so dramatic with all three of us crying. Both Big Brother and Little Sister cried at the same time, loudly, and together. The third day Daddy came home for lunch so things were off again. Friday was good, but today was the weekend and things got off again (sigh). Mommy really lost her temper with Big Brother this week - I never realized how "angry" I could get, especially when you choose to do everything that I ask you not to. You like to wake your sister up when she is sleeping and laying on her body when I am trying to nurse her. Despite me pleading and bribing you not to, you still like to bother her to no end. Mommy really screamed and spanked you today (battle didn't end until 3:30 today), and I feel so ashamed for doing it. I keep telling myself to control my temper, but at the moment, I couldn't seem to hold it together. I keep fearing one day you will come back to me and say that you remember these terrible moments. I also feel terrible that Little Sister has to witness all these emotional bursting moments too - I too hope that all will become a distant memory to both of you.
Little Sister is just going along with whatever is at hand, crying when something isn't right and is sleeping when everything fall into her place. Today, we all went to a party for a short while and Little Sister didn't do so well. Maybe it was because you didn't have enough sleep, but you were crying the whole time unless you were held by Mommy. This last week was rough on Little Sister sleepingwise too. Sleeping is what Mommy feels is the most important element for you, yet I simply cannot provide you the best environment so that you will sleep more and sleep better. Despite Mommy's attempt to help you to sleep unassisted by yourself, you outright refuse to follow and always want to be held (despite the chaos from your brother's actions). When will all this drama end? I am not sure, but I am hoping that Little Sister will give in soon and sleep by yourself - it would make the day goes by much smoother for all of us.
Big Brother is currently fascinated with babies; you just want to hear everything about babies. It is how Mommy can get you to calm down when I need you to sleep (doesn't work all the time, but most of the time). You are also into singing all kind of different songs and you have an incredible memory. You will even remember the lyrics to the long ones (which is why Mommy fear that my emotional explosive moments will be ingrained into your memory). You will sing at all times. What is cutest is when you sing happy birthday to your aunt. Normally when you are not fighting bedtime, you are very respectful and super cute. Your vocabulary continue to explode and you still melt Mommy's heart with all your cuteness all the time. You continue to love to be outside just simply wandering around the neighborhood looking at all the things around you. Today the cutest thing you did was to empty all the money from red lixi envelope and throw the empty envelopes into the recycle bin. Mommy is proud that you are learning about recycling so early. At the party, you were very well-behaved and ate well, something that everyone was so impressed about.
After a long day, Mommy is thoroughly tired and will call it a night now. Love you both very much.
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
Dear Khoa & MaiAn,
So we have moved right back to where we left off with Mommy taking care of both of you. Grandma is still staying with us to help Mommy out, so it is not as juggling for Mommy but my mind is totally off from work. I have never happier about not making any money. Seeing your smiles just make my heart feel so warm and make every hardship all worth it. Little Sister is back to eating regularly, though night sleeping is still very disruptive since you were waking so much to nurse when Mommy was working. Hopefully, you will settle back and grow into a beautiful, precious little girl.
Big Brother loves having Mommy at home. Since Grandma is helping Mommy with Little Sister, Mommy was able to take Big Brother to many places. On both Thursday and Friday, we went to story time at the library and you seem to enjoy the time a lot more than before. You loved dancing to the music and following the movements that the librarian teaches. You are also very brave; you would go sit in the circle all by yourself knowing that Mommy sits in the back. I wonder how you would feel if you were to go to school now.
So we have moved right back to where we left off with Mommy taking care of both of you. Grandma is still staying with us to help Mommy out, so it is not as juggling for Mommy but my mind is totally off from work. I have never happier about not making any money. Seeing your smiles just make my heart feel so warm and make every hardship all worth it. Little Sister is back to eating regularly, though night sleeping is still very disruptive since you were waking so much to nurse when Mommy was working. Hopefully, you will settle back and grow into a beautiful, precious little girl.
Big Brother loves having Mommy at home. Since Grandma is helping Mommy with Little Sister, Mommy was able to take Big Brother to many places. On both Thursday and Friday, we went to story time at the library and you seem to enjoy the time a lot more than before. You loved dancing to the music and following the movements that the librarian teaches. You are also very brave; you would go sit in the circle all by yourself knowing that Mommy sits in the back. I wonder how you would feel if you were to go to school now.
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